Pearla Barillas- ch 1- Finding my own way.

Pearla (18)
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narrated by Pearla

Once I turned 18 I decided to move out of my mom's home. I know if I asked I could move into my father's home with Renee but I decided against that as well.l  Therefore I grabbed all of my savings and searched for a place that would allow me to rent.  It was a little hard but finally I found a lady that was willing to give me a break. The only problem was that it was located in Colorado Springs. It was a far trek but I was willing to move.

My new apartment is very tiny.  At first I loved the fact that I had my own space. Now that I see how empty my space is I get a little lonely.  I try to email my brothers and parents to let them know that I am doing ok.  My quad brothers are at college and they are really busy.  Its rare that I get a call from them now. We are now totally living separate lives.

I met one of my neighbors and he seems nice. He asked me if I was going to paint my apartment soon. I told him that I was going to eventually.  He asked me if I had gone to college. He could tell that I was very young. I just smiled and told him that I was not ready to go back to college yet.  I never knew neighbors could be so nosy.

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My dad came to visit me.  I am much more closer to my dad now than my mom.  For some reason dad and I can talk about anything. 

I made him something to eat. It was funny to see his face when he entered my apartment. He didn't realize it was a studio. 

He asked me if everything was OK. I told him that I was doing just fine.  I had a tiny bit more of my savings left over.  He said if things got tough he can help me out or I can move into his home.  For now I just want to try to do this on my own. I know I am young but I can do this.

I knew I could do that but now I needed to convince my father of it as well.  He seemed hesitant but at the end of our conversation he agreed to back off and let me handle my life. 

He said he had to get going. He needed to drive back to Viramontes. I promised that I would go see him, Renee and my half siblings soon.


That night I laid in bed.  For now I was happy.  Soon I would have to find another job if I planned to stay in this apartment.  So many thoughts were starting to crowd my head.  I forced them to go away because I needed to get a good nights sleep.  I just had to keep reminding myself that I got this.