Her daughter (with Aiden Royce) Kayla (14)
Narrated by Madeline.
William and I are getting estranged. We still have not set a date for our wedding. As of now we are just living together and seeing where it goes. I guess this is enough for him but for me its not.
Kayla is spending time with her dad Aiden back in Viramontes. I really do miss her. As much as I would love for her to be here know she needs to spend time with her dad.
This gives William and I time to kick back and act like a couple without a teenager running around. I want to go out while William wants to practice on his guitar.
Therefore I was more than ecstatic when my Quad brother Rodrigo said he wanted to come visit. I thought it was perfect timing for them to come.
Rodrigo was helping me cook and he too asked me what my plans were with William. I told him that everything was the same so far.
I guess Troy let it slip and William told all of us at dinner that a ring was just a ring. As far as commitment, it was solid between the both of us. I just wish he and I could get married already....!
Bedtime was fun. I was helping Tristan with his potty training. I really miss this but wonder if I will ever have another baby. Kayla is already 14 and I certainly am not getting any younger.
I went back up just in time to say good bye to William before he went to work.
Rodrigo mentioned that William seemed a little defensive. Troy just felt that William was tired of being asked when the wedding was going to be. Everyone was ready to get to bed so I showed them their set up in our basement.
The babies were asleep and Tristan was just off to bed. I was going to go up to my room when Rodrigo asked if I was going to sleep. I guess he wanted us to talk brother to sister before they left the next day.
Rodrigo was so happy. He said that things between Troy and him have been great since the birth of the twins. It seems that they will not be having anymore kids. I let him know about the distance that is forming between William and I. In the end it felt great to let out my concerns. We both hugged and decided to go asleep.
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The next morning I made breakfast before they headed back home. Rodrigo wanted to make sure that everything was still good. I told him it was.
Saying goodbye to my brother and brother in law was hard. Even worse was saying good bye to my nephews. I thought William would come to say bye but he claimed he was busy reading an article.
I went into the living room and I told him that it was time to talk. He agreed.
I told him that I wanted to get married because we had been engaged for over four years. I needed the paper. I loved him and I wanted him to be part of my and Kayla's life. He told me that he did not like being pressured.
I can not quite remember when it escalated. We started picking on each other's faults. I picked on his work hours while he said I did not work. I told him that I was done playing house.
In the end he told me that he was never playing house. It was all real for him and the engagement was off. He wanted to know if we were still together. I told him no. I was not going to go back to being just boyfriend girlfriend to start all over again. This felt like a game to me. He said he was moving out then and there.
It all happened so fast. One minute we were just going to talk, the next we were breaking up.
I sat on the stairs as William put most of his things in a cab and left. I did not even try to stop him because for me it was over.
Kayla was due to come that day and she knew something was wrong.
Over dinner I explained everything. Kayla was supportive. She told me everything was going to be OK. I know it will be but it still hurts to go through the motions.
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