Ethan Leopardi-Ch 12- Before its too late....

Ethan (39), his wife Noelle (38)
Their Children: Quads: Carter, Zienna, Dexter, Jake (5)

Narrated by Noelle

My business is going good. It takes a toll on me getting the inventory in order while taking care of the kids.  I told Ethan that I needed help.  He told me that he would help me but I see that only involves him helping himself to more sleep.  Therefore I decided to do the inventory before I go to bed. 

It seems that by the time I finally get to sleep its time to wake up because one of the triplets is crying. I yearn for them to turn 5.  Their birthday is coming up and while I love them at this stage..I would love them to be a little more independent. 

So I get into the room. Feed them a bottle and hope and pray that they sleep for another hour or if I am lucky two more hours so that I can get some work done.

I get to sewing my creations.  My designer line has not grown too much because I dont have time to design.  It's almost as if I keep sewing the designs that have been approved by the masses.
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Finally after months of arguing, Ethan decided that I did need help. I  put an ad out for a design intern/associate and many applied. No one really caught my designer's eye until I met Trevor Ngal.  Well I thought he was an applicant. Turns out that he was looking to purchase some of my designs for mass production.  He told me that he would be willing to help as long as I would allow him use of my space for some clients to try on his designs.  I figured it was not such a bad idea.  He totally loved my space and we shared so many thoughts. Its as if my creative side has reawakened.

Trevor and I called each other to share wonderful ideas.  At the triplets birthday party, I saw this wonderful design on my sister-in-law and she told me it was Trevor's.  I called him and told him. He told me that soon everyone in Viramontes will be wearing my designs instead of his. 

Our creative souls were such a match.  Trevor told me that we needed to venture out a little more in order to see and get more ideas. I agreed. 

Ethan wanted to argue because he was going to be home again doing dinner while I went out. I told him that I supported him in his career and it was my turn now.  He told me that why couldn't I choose another day or while the kids were at school.  The cab got there and I left.

As I was leaving I saw Ethan serving dinner.  Part of me wanted to stop the cab but the dominant part of me wanted him to understand that he needed to help take care of the kids more. 
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I fought my feelings for a long time.  I dont know how it happen but I remember finally giving in and it was the best thing. I felt so alive.  I felt loved for being me.  I was not being loved because someone needed help with their homework or a meal cooked.  I was loved because I was sexy and I was me. Trevor made me feel so hot and alive.

Eventually I could not wait until the kids and Ethan left out of the house.  The minute I did I would run to Trevor's house.  We would cuddle for hours and finally ended up having sex. 

When I got home I immediately showered and went to bed. Ethan came home and tried to see if I was awake. I was but now I belonged to Trevor and there was no way that I would give myself up to Ethan again.
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I continued seeing Trevor and we were even becoming brazen with our behavior.  We would go out to dinner and I would love for Trevor to caress me all over.  It got to a point where I didn't care where we were. I just wanted to be with him anywhere and any how.

Trevor had to go away for a designer's conference.  The whole week I was on edge. I wanted to see him, be with him but I had to be at home with my family. Then one night Ethan was home waiting for me to come down from my studio. He asked me to have a seat.  My heart was racing thinking that he found out about Trevor and me.  He told me that I felt distant and he wanted to know why. I knew why but I didnt want to share that with him.  He told me that he wanted the old me back.  He wanted us to get through this and he loved me.  He apologized for not being there but said that he would make the effort to help me out more.  I sat there and listened and I felt finally what I needed for a long time.  I looked at our wedding picture and I almost instantly wanted to cry.  I held back the tears and told Ethan that I was tired and needed to go to bed.
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When Trevor came back he asked to see me right away.  I was tired and I didnt have the same energy to go out to see him.  The week he had been gone served me as a way to realize that I wanted my marriage to work.  I ended up going to see Trevor.  He was so happy to see me...ecstatic was more like it. I didnt feel the same.  He looked different to me... almost as if his newness no longer appealed to me.  He hugged me and told me he missed me and wanted to get me in bed.  I let him hug me but I knew I needed some time to think without him there in my ear all the time.

I was shocked when all of a sudden he told me that he couldnt live like this anymore.  He got down on one knee and asked me to marry him. I told him , "NO".  What was he thinking? i wouldnt leave my family for this. I needed to think. 

Trevor was so upset. He didnt want to hear my side of it. He told me that he knew we were meant to be. He said that he knew leaving me for a week would allow for Ethan to move in on our love. Finally I saw Trevor for what he was...a whiny man.  I told him I needed my space and whether he liked it or not I needed to decide what was best for me and my family.  I needed a break and for now yes we were over.
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The weeks that followed I fell back in love with my family.  I got to reacquint myself with my children and husband.  How is it that I was so ready to let this go?  I didnt understand how I got to the place that I got with Trevor.  As I sat down to dinner it seemed that Trevor was such a distant memory.  I looked at my husband and found myself wanting to be closer with him again. I just hoped that he wanted to be closer to me too.

One day I got up the courage and told him to meet me upstairs.  The children had gone to school and he was reading his paper.  He had worked nights so he was winding down from his night shift.  I brushed his shoulder and told him, "come upstairs Ethan ".  I wanted it to sound seductive but I am sure it sounded like I was a complete idiot. 

In our bedroom, I nervously laid myself out like a treat.  Ethan walked in and he was truly shocked to see me there.  He asked what had happened to us.  I knew then that he needed an explanation.

I could not be totally honest. I was too scared. I told him that my business got the best of me but that chapter was closed. I was ready to give up the dream that was turning into a nightmare.  I did my best and it seemed that Ethan bought it.  I was happy that we were going to work things out.
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Weeks went by and it seemed that finally we were back to our old selves.  I even went and did a little make over on myself. 

Ethan and i were on the best of terms.  The kids were so happy and I was ecstatic to be with them.  Everything was just as it should be.  I had decided to go to work for another designer and gave up my home business.  For now I was content leaving work at work!

That is until one day I came home to find Trevor sitting at our dinning room table.  It had been almost a year since I seen Trevor.  I was shocked when he was sitting there as if he were an old friend coming to say ,"hello". At least that's what Ethan said that Trevor was doing here.

I did my best to act normal.  Trevor also acted normal.  Trevor asked if I was still doing my own design work to which I responded no.  He was saddened to hear that I had given up on that idea to have my own designer line.  He told Ethan I and that he was looking for some of my items and would love to purchase any left over designs I had.  Ethan thought it was a great idea to clean up the attic space.  I told Trevor that I would be more than happy to show him after dinner.

As soon as we got up there Trevor became an Octopus.  He told me that I was the love of his life and he didnt buy the nice home act that I was putting on. 

I pushed him back and told him that it was not an act.  , "you see Trevor you have not been married before. It takes a lot to build this and sure take a lot more to destroy it.  I love Ethan and my children. Its over Trevor. I think I made it more than clear when I have not contacted you at all."

"Noelle you confuse things.  You dont love Ethan or your family.  If you truly loved them then nothing would have happened between us.  You can stand there and act all righteous but you and I know the truth. It may not be weeks, months or if your lucky years..but trust me there will be more infidelity in your so called marriage of love.  I just hope that its you and not him who gives you back what you deserve".
"Get the hell out of my house, " I yelled.

"I know the truth hurts doesn't it.  Its OK I am leaving.  I wish you the best Noelle.  I also hope your act of faithfulness to your husband and family doesnt fall flat."'

I was fuming and I walked downstairs after Trevor left.  Ethan was there and asked if everything was OK.  I told him that Trevor wanted to steal some designs and not give me credit.  I think that Ethan bought it...b ut something that Trevor said kept bothering me.


I grabbed Ethan's hands, "you know I love your right?"
"yes"
"Ethan promise me that no matter what you will talk to me.  Promise that we will work things out"
"We will. Are you sure that everything is OK?"
"Yes it is.  I just want you to know that I love you."

Author's note~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
This episode was hard to write.  This is a semi ROS.  When my sims get married a dice gets rolled. The di states, "married, separate, divorce, have affair".  Ethan rolled, "have affair not caught" the next di roll indicated that it would be Noelle who had the affair.  The next di rolled that they would stay together. This is the first dice roll that I get has affair. I was happy to see that they stay together. I am sure that Ethan suspects but sometimes its easier to keep the doubt at bay than to actually confront it.  He truly loves Noelle.  For now there is no wants for kids. Lets see if that changes in the future. 
Also in the first picture... I dont know about you but I am terrible at taking pictures of my sims in family portrait style. I have resorted to going to a lot and using the hack to make my desired sims appear. I did this portrait after I had played this household...therefore the kids are 5 when the pictures show toddlers..........ugh! I hope that is not too disconcerting. After all the main focus of this update was Noelle and Trevor.  

Trevor by the way will sail into the sunset unless another playable sim likes him.  He was not engaged or married to Noelle so he does not become a playable. Better luck next time Trevor!